saw an Audi R8 downtown this morning on my way to class. made me feel small in comparision in my A4 :( it gave me motivation to do my homework & get good grades, so i can finish college and get an even better job ;)
i always get SO emotional when i watch "it gets better" videos.
i can promise to anyone who feels no hope for being who they are, it really does. i’m 19 now and i’m still young. but when i was in middle school and high school, i was extremely harassed. my locker would have glue poured all over it somedays, to make it look like cum was put all over my stuff. i’d get walked up to and would be called “faggot” all the time from people i didn’t even know, and on the internet, the harassment wouldn’t stop there either. i had NO ONE to talk to, and i wold go to school for days in a row without saying a word to ANYONE. i’ve been there, and i’ve got the scars on my arms to prove it. i am so glad i’m still here now.
i remember another time, i received a note in my locker saying that i was gonna be “fag dragged” later that week, where i’d get knocked out & dragged behind a car for being gay. even some of my closest friends turned away from me. but in my senior year of high school, i showed everyone how great of a person i know i am. there were a few who still wouldn’t accept me, but at least my confidence grew and for once i spoke out for my own self. the ones who made fun of me didn’t matter anymore, and i had a bigger social group than any of them did. i came out more respected than them in the end. in my second year of college now, life doesn’t stop becoming more and more fabulous. i’ve met so many more new people that i i love and adore and love and adore me in return as i’ve widened my horizons from the small world i used to live in when i was younger. please don’t ever think that it doesn’t get better. it fucking does. and you better believe i believe in you, and i want you to know that there are SO many people that care. if you dont’ know of one, you do now. don’t give up. suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. YOUR life is in YOUR hands. now shine like a star, baby.