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Jul 20

lnternetfag:

on a typical day i usually contemplate committing suicide, why i haven’t committed suicide already, and how exactly i let my life get to where it is now

Jul 16

analalien:

i’m really good at making my life sounding more chaotic than it actually is and making myself sound more of a shitshow than i actually am.  sometimes i look at the things i say and i’m dramatic as freaking heck

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analalien:

i love you<3

analalien:

i love you<3

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Jul 15

antichriest said: You're my inspiration

lnternetfag:

why

i have no job, house, and i’m a drug addict lol

Jul 14

Anonymous said: what did you get fired for? i'm sorry :(

lnternetfag:

texting…….. .  … . ……….. .

analalien:

i just got fired and now i’m homeless and all i’m doing about it is sitting on tumblr

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Jul 12

analalien:

drunk as fuq n finally have wifi since moving out of my family’s joke of a “home” hi erryone i miss u all i’ll be active again soon xoxox

#EATMOREDRUGS

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Jul 06

analalien:

i’m so fucking sad

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analalien:

happinessnomore replied to your post: klonopin, ganj, adderall, muscle relax…

How have you NOT overdosed yet?

alright.  this comment doesn’t make me mad personally bc i read thousands of crazy things on the internet daily.  but i wanna tell you a few things.  deal?

first of all, i’m highly intelligent.  i might not appear that way with how i present myself on my blog, but regardless, i’m smart.  and i know exactly what i’m doing with my body.  YES, many people who u se drugs do not have a clue.  i however do.  2mg of klonopin and a shot of vodka isn’t going to kill you.  sure, there are risks with larger amounts when both of those substances are combined, but i was far from taking dangerous amounts.   i’m even prescribed 2mg of klonopin for my anxiety and insomnia.  second, no one can overdose on weed.  and to overdose on adderall is extremely hard to pull off.  plus, considering the fact that i was on adderall, which is a stimulant just like caffeine or methamphetamine or cocaine, it would have been hard for me to overdose from a small dose of benzo’s and a small dose of alcohol because i was also on STIMULANTS.  they counteract each other pretty well.  drugs aren’t black and white.

am i saying what i do is safe?  absolutely not.  do i recommended or condone drug use?  of course not.  but if you’re gonna use drugs, at least be smart about it.  and i know i’m very intelligent about what i do to my body.  if i wanted to die, i would and could instantly.  i know how to do that with drugs in the snap of a finger.  but i also know how to use drugs intelligently and recreationally and SPIRITUALLY, despite the risk factors that almost everything else in this world have as well.  have you driven your car today?  HIGH RISK OF DEATH RIGHT THERE FOR YA!

but if i do overdose sometime, trust me, it would be planned.  i’m studying pharmacology, spend countless of hours researching on chemistry, and i feel very comfortable about the experiences i put myself through and which drug cocktails are safe.  good quality, lab tested, correct dosages, products coming straight from the chemists, and test kits for substances are all a god start.

it’s scary and seems reckless.  i understand your response.  but there’s a lot more to the situation than what school and the government tell you about drugs.  and sorry sweetie, but most of what they are telling you are lies.

by no means are drugs safe, healthy, or good for you.  and by no means am i condoning the use of drugs.  but to end this conversation, i’d just like to say this: don’t ever be rude toward someone who may be struggling with the powerful disease that is addiction.  don’t imply a remark such as “how have you NOT overdosed yet?”  how do you think that might make a person feel?  a question for you is “how have you not gotten your ass kicked yet?”

it’s extremely disrespectful on your end and your comment can hurt MILLIONS of people who have lost loved ones due to addiction.  if you don’t know about it first hand, keep your mouth shut and consider yourself extremely blessed.  it’s not like people are choosing to be sick.

and guess what?  i’m not even gonna get high today.  or tomorrow.  or the next day.  cuz while i enjoy it from time to time, i don’t need to.  so no, i won’t be overdosing.  BUT ALL THE POWER WHO CHOSE TO GET HIGH RESPONSIBLY AND HAVE A GOOD FUCKING TIME!  meanwhile OP is sitting there real defeated.  sry bout it.

tl:dr educate yourself and be respectful, please.  and smoke a fucking joint for cyring out loud.  even paris hilton does it!

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Jul 04

analalien:

i don’t think i’ve ever needed a haircut more in my life but tbh i kinda like the whole hi-i’m-still-15 look??

analalien:

i don’t think i’ve ever needed a haircut more in my life but tbh i kinda like the whole hi-i’m-still-15 look??

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analalien:

i don’t think i’ve ever needed a haircut more in my life but tbh i kinda like the whole hi-i’m-still-15 look??

analalien:

i don’t think i’ve ever needed a haircut more in my life but tbh i kinda like the whole hi-i’m-still-15 look??

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Jul 02

analalien:

i just hoarded the url lnternetfag and i really wanna use it but i also don’t wanna stray from analalien 

and if this is my main concern in life rn my life must be pretty ok

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